what a turn of events... D:

I think it is during this type of situation you are being forced out of your comfort zone; you are struggling to keep within the circle but a the hand of GOD is pushing you out of the circle. You lifted up a toe and placed it timidly out of the line, and it's hot like iron and you just want to quit it. 

Well may some force and loved ones to use their comforting yet firm hands and hold me by the shoulder and from the back, push me down and support me to help step it out. 

I'm just not that strong. 

And i'm lucky because im not alone. 

let's not quit it, ya? 

STAY POSITIVE

 need to step it up.. 

most probably sinus - nose check up
dry skin and white spots - national skin centre
worsening lazy eye - national eye centre
pigmentation and scars on legs - laser treatment 




so many problems. 

a) got to find a way.

b) now should i eat those prawn crackers or not.

c) receive YSL logo bag from kino from jerry jam, yay!

d) a moody friday.

e) deadline's on monday.

f) needs new closet (as always)

g) needs new tights/colored tights/patterned tights/new black jeans (impt) 

h) need to produce better work

i) need to clean my room sparkling clean. 

j) need more jamie cullum albums

k) need to look better each day, dress better everyday.

 I must move forward. Doesn't matter how slow i go. As long I'm moving forward. 

 

 Was swamped with work the past 2 weeks and right now everything is quite a take a chill pill take a chill pill. Under pressure, i finally level up in my flash knowledge (entirely on google and my own logic) and we created a website in 3 days(!!). Well, an event proposal in the format of a website, that is. It sure was tedious to do as3 coding and i'm glad i battled it out with it! 

Today i had not much to do 'cept folding brochures and exploring internet language of css etc and thinking about my future plans. I'm aiming to go for part time studies this year but my lazy bones are a little reluctant. Part time studies will probably mean less play time! Oh no i really like to play too much... And the other factor is i already have to set money aside for debts and more debts. FInally called NUH and in my horror i realized i still have about 1k to settle for my braces. Sighs... there goes my laser treatment for scars on legs.

Really, really, need to come up with a savings plan to work things out.

it turns out, key is in budget budget budget?

argh, i really wanna a pair of chanel cc earring for my upcoming birthday... gotta wait now. 

SAVE MONEH!

 

 HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

A SHORT RESOLUTION 2010 

a) save more money
b) part time studies
c) get fit - running in hoodie + track pants work
d) whitening (never ending pursue) 
e) take off my braces 
f) spend more time w/ my loved ones 

is it possible to be extremely angry and upset , yet smiling, cracking jokes and feeling absolutely ridiculous at the same time? I can do that perfectly. I amaze myself. The weird thing about this is that you lose sight with WHAT and HOW exactly you are feeling.

it's confusing.

 I think im just a very lazy girl. 

Been off for the past 4 days because i took 2 days leave and had done none shit cause of the bad weather. wanted to go sentosa x jurong bird park x ann siang street but... 

and while everyone is going to have 4 day week the next 2 weeks im still in 5 day mode. 

Back to work today with tons to do. 

Is it a crime that i don't like work? 

I just like play better. 

I watched avatar... i love it. I love the concept of the show despite it's cliche. 

Plug in and download, upload is quite cool. With your hair some more. 

byebye

And I got no money
I will pay this time
And I got no money
I will pay you before I die.